I just can’t explain how lucky I am to have you. It’s as if I have never thought that I’d actually feel this way. You reach out to where I am, I can see the efforts, I can feel the LEGIT genuine kilig feeling and most of all, I can really feel that you love me.
I know all about your past and how you’ve changed since I came, you stopped everything you know that would hurt me and, that is, purely unimaginable for me since it felt like it was actually the first time for me to feel that someone would really quit what they have been doing for a long period of time just for me.
I really am in love with you, and you know that. I stopped my old ways. You don’t deserve to experience those kind of shit that I have done in the past. Now, everything’s clear and everything’s new. Those countless pinky promises, sweetest kisses, imperfectly perfect dates, long walks, sweet talks in the sidewalks, those moments in the movies where you stop looking at the moviescreen and then you look at me as I watch the movie (well, I can see you in my peripheral) then you turn back to the movie and smile.. The little things, holding hands, our escalator protocol, everything. All of it will never be memorable if the guy that I’m doing all those things with, is not you, because I love you. I will never get tired of you. Ever.
I remember when you asked me just earlier this one : “Paano nalang kaya kung nagsawa ka sakin? Kung nagsawa ka sa ganito?” …… I was all like….”really baby? Are you really serious?” - in my mind though.
Then I asked you what “ganito” meant and you said that “ganito” meant our dates.
So I’ll just have to say this……I still have the hangover from last night and I still haven’t got enough sleep but I still chose you (our date) over sleep because I want to spend my time with you. I want to spend my start of December with you because you’re very important to me. And I really crave you more and more each day. I crave the need of wanting to see you everyday and that’s just getting too addicting.
I will never get tired of you, our dates, our random jokes, the way we act like kids when we joke at malls, our conversations…. Everything. It just goes to show that how much everything we do, even if it values from zero to a hundred, I will never forget it. Because it involves you. It involves us.
I love you and I feel so lucky to have you, Reinier.