I don’t know if this is really necessary but I’m gonna tell you a story about me liking a boy who never liked me back. My summer 2014 was clearly coming to an end and all I could think of is that boy and how I should start the conversation (simply because if I don’t initiate the first contact, there will NEVER be any contact) so I prepped up and planned everything in my head until he replied. I figured that if he’s not interested he wouldn’t even reply to my message. I texted him first five times for at least 2 months, and luckily, he replied. Small talks and whatnot. He didn’t reply for a couple of times of the five contact initiations, though. And for the whole summer I wondered when he will ever text me first. So there we were, planning upon hanging out. The date, the meeting place, everything has been set only to find out that he would cancel it on the last minute. That was the last straw. I figured that he really doesn’t like me or he will never like me. No matter how much attention other people of the opposite sex are giving me, it will never be enough to fill the feeling of having the only person that I like, like me back.
The shallowest thing here is that I haven’t even seen him in person yet. Ever. This is the shallowest infatuation I have ever experienced. And this is one of the cons the social media has. Don’t get me wrong, he’s a friend of a friend of a super close friend of mine.
And for my subtweets, I feel really embarassed. Total humiliation. I don’t know why but I have a feeling he gets it. He had the right to assume though (if ever) because he actually was the one I was referring to.
So now, I’m busying myself with other things. I seldom crush on guys but when I crush, damn. This one’s a tough one. I can never get over the person I like until I find a new one.